Thursday, December 31, 2015

2016 Goals

1. Regulate my thyroid hormones

2. Eat cleaner

3. Exercise regularly

4. Rid myself of these extra 50 pounds

5. Laugh more often

6. Stop being grumpy so much

7. Take more walks

8. Get control of our spending

9. Visit Michael in Colorado Springs

10. Laugh more often - yeah again I need to do this more

Friday, December 25, 2015

Christmas Day!!

I have tracked everything I have eaten up until yesterday. I didn't eat a true lunch or dinner but I might need to head over to SP and log what I remember.

I have lost 3.5 pounds since Monday. I think this new batch of levothyroxin might have the right dosage. I have been waking up before 7 am each morning and up and moving before 8 am. I have had energy all day and feel so much better. Damn it is amazing what 35% difference in dosage can do!

I purchased some new protein products from Nutribullet. They are packed full of superfoods and are suppose to give you energy and help burn more calories. I only bought one pack of each kind just to see how they do. Bad part is there is only 10 servings so I would have to purchase like 4 bags if Keith decides he likes them. That would equal to $70 a month. But I guess that is still cheaper than eating fastfood every morning for breakfast.

I have a big dinner planned for tonight, but I am going to portion control everything. My goal is to be at 179 by Monday....2 more pounds to go. If I can keep up the good choices and exercise I might be around 165 by the time LaDonna comes to visit in January.

Monday, December 21, 2015

Weight is still climbing!!

Last Thursday my weight had dropped to 180 so I was down 2 pounds. This morning I am up to 184.5....up 2.5 pounds!!

Tracking is going to be in full effect starting today. I must be snacking more than I think and eating just the wrong foods.

Something has to give!! I have to start seeing my weight go down. I will have to do the work and really push myself not to overeat and to workout!! I'm the only one that can do this for me. No one can do it for me.

Thursday, December 17, 2015

Bloodwork Results

I am completely confused, but my blood work came back lower than it did in July!! In July I was at 2.0 and now I am at 1.65. I know I felt my best at 2.0, but could a lower number be why I am not feeling great. I am at a lost. The doc is going to keep me at 50 mcg but still place me on Synthroid instead of Levothyroxin. Maybe my hormones are fluctuating up and down and they need to stay at a consistent 2.0. We shall see. I am still taking 2 pills a day of the Levothyroxin until my new meds come in.

On a better note, I am now down 2 pounds since Monday. I need to lose 2-3  more by Monday.

My goal is to get back into working out 2 - 3 times a week. I'm not going to push 5 days just yet. But I think if I can do 2 cardio workouts, ski, and do a good stretch throughout the week, it will get me back into the groove of working out.

Tuesday, December 15, 2015

Doctor Visit Update

Saw the doctor yesterday, Dec 14th. I have been feeling horrible since October 1st time frame.

Doc took my blood work again and will check my thyroid levels. She said that the generic brand Levothyroxin has a 35% difference of either more or less of actual dosage. I could have been getting the correct dosage in the months of July - September or more. Then when I did my refill on Sep 29th I could have received less than the actual dosage. I began feeling bad in October and hit the wall in November.

Her plans are to place me on the name brand Synthroid and hopefully I will become more regulated.

Looking back at my June - September posts, I was feeling great and was losing weight.

We shall see.

Wednesday, December 9, 2015

Just feeling like crap!!!!

Oh body why do you do this to me?! I'm tired constantly, my back hurts constantly, my breathing is short, and my head hurts everyday!!

So tired of feeling like crap!!!!!!!

I keep gaining weight and I have no energy or desire to work out!!!!!!

I have an appointment with with my doctor on Monday and hopefully all I need is a boost in my meds. I just want to get back to feeling great again. Prior to the knee injury I was getting there and feeling great!!! It has been 2 years of feeling like crap! I guess it could be worst and it could be many more years like some people.

Just had to vent! I am going to listen to my tired ass body and take another day off from exercising. Hey I got 3 days straight of energy and now it is time for me to be burned out!

Monday, November 30, 2015

Eating and Workout Plan For the next 25 Days

Well I made it through Thanksgiving. I am back up to 179.5, which wasn't caused by Thanksgiving it was caused by lack of energy!! Plus when you don't have a lot of money you really have to eat a lot of carbs!

So I have 25 days to lose and get healthy prior to Christmas. My plan is to have protein shakes for breakfast and lunch with fruit or carrots and celery as snacks. I will have healthy dinner each night.

I plan on beginning the P90X workout again. I will do the DVDs and walk on the treadclimber on days I am not skiing. Beginning Mid-December I will be skiing 3 days a week for at least an hour to 2 hours. Once we get a gym membership I will hit the gym twice a week, but until then I will be doing the P90X DVDs.

So today is day 1 and on the docket is the Core Synergenics workout DVD. I am sure I will not be able to do the complete circuit because I am so out of shape.

It is crazy how one month of not working out 4-5 times a week can make you lose all the muscle you once had. I am so weak right now it is just pathetic.

So my workout plan will be as follows:

Week of Nov 30th - Dec 5th

Week of Dec 6th - Dec 12th

Week of Dec 13th - Dec 19th
Sunday - ski day
Monday - P90X DVD
Tuesday - Ski Day
Wednesday - Ski Day
Thursday - P90X DVD
Friday - Ski Day
Saturday - P90X DVD
 ***This will be a tough week but I think by this time I will have built up my endurance

Week of Dec 20th - Dec 26th - Vacation week
Sunday - ski or rest
Monday - P90X DVD
Tuesday - ski or P90X DVD - won't need to drop off car to Keith
Wednesday - ski or P90X DVD - won't need to drop off car to Keith
Thursday - ski or P90X DVD - might snowshoe if weather is good enough
Friday - ski, snowshoe or P90X DVD
Saturday - ski, snowshoe or P90X DVD

Hopefully I can stick to this plan and regain my energy and strength.

Monday, November 16, 2015

Mid-November Update

I tried the detox diet and could stick to it for only 5 days!! I'm just horrible at eliminating items from my diet.

I haven't weighed myself in a week now. I did lose 5 pounds from the detox diet. I might have gained back a couple of those pounds.

I'm tired a lot right now. My knee hurts constantly. I know a lot of my lack of energy is from the change of time and seasons. It gets dark so darn early now!! The weather is so odd that you just cannot rely on outdoor activities right now.

I want my energy back so bad but just don't know what to do!!

I turn 45 on Monday!! I am not at the weight I want to be for my 45th birthday!! I just want to lose weight and feel healthy again!!!!!!!! I am so frustrated but I am not throwing in the towel just yet!

I think it is time to dust off the P90X DVDs again. They seem to really work on building me strength. I have to start doing something that will push me out of my comfort zone.

Monday, November 2, 2015

Candida Detox

It has been well over a month since my last post. I was really good at exercising last month but it didn't seem to make a bit of difference. I read about having an over abundance of yeast in your cut and instestines and I think this could be my problem.

When I had knee surgery I did get a yeast infection. I have not had one up until then since my hysterectomy in 2001. I think it was from the anesthesia and antibiotics plus not eating well balanced food the first 2 weeks after surgery.

The Candida Detox is a 3 phase detox.

Phase 1 is for 2 days only and the only thing I have is water, green tea, and vegetable broth.
As of today, November 2nd I have begun this phase.

Phase 2 is for 3 - 5 days. Only thing I can eat is certain vegetables along with eggs in the morning. I can have one salad a day with only lemon juice as my dressing. Again only water and green tea as my beverages. I can also only use stevia as a sweetner.

Phase 3 is for 14 days. I can only have steamed or roasted vegetables. I can add back in root vegetables during this phase. Once a day I can have cold raw vegetables such as a salad and quinoa as a grain. Towards end of this phase I can slowly add in protein from meat.

So for 21 days I will have NO dairy, cheese, alcohol, bread, and sugar. It will not be easy but I hope that I can stick with this detox so I can feel better. I don't think I will lose much weight during this but if I do that will be great. Even if I do lose weight I doubt it will stay off once I begin adding back in these eliminated items.

My goal is to cut down bread and gluten to just once a week. Eliminate sugar to only special occasions. Alcohol to once a month. Dairy I can really do without but will have to supplement my calcium. Cheese I can really do without but will add it in once a month. This is going to be very difficult but hopefully with the help from the other women on my SparkPeople team I will survive. Just these first 2 days will be very tough. I think the second day will be the hardest because I am not really hungry today at all.


Exercising will not be easy with such small amounts of food, but I will do some strength training with light cardio. I think if I burn at least 250 calories in working out a day this will help, plus it will put me back into a routine.

Wednesday, September 23, 2015

Exercise Update!!

Still no weight loss but I am becoming stronger!!

Ran on Friday and did a great time although I only ran for 1.5 miles but it had been a week since I had ran and I didn't want a injury.

Hiked on Sunday for 4.5 hours and although I was tired afterwards I could still move and function the rest of the day and next day.

Monday I biked and did not take a break until I was at the second bench at Round Valley. I was able to do 9,3 miles in under an hour!! I also felt great the rest of the night (I was able to work on bookkeeping stuff for an extra 1.5 hours) and the next day.

Tuesday I ran again! I ran for 3/4 of mile without stopping! I completed 2.5 miles in 35 minutes. My body felt great it was my lungs that were giving me a fit.

I have a leg workout planned for today but I think I'm going to switch it to upper body and abs instead in order to give my legs a break.

Wednesday, September 16, 2015


Still no weight loss but I have upped my weights to 14 pounds instead of 8 pounds. I wish I could have only gone up 2 pounds but the bars themselves weigh 4 pounds and when you add 10 more pounds to them it becomes 14. Oh wow look at that math!! LOL!! Yes I am typing to myself....LMAO!!

I was sore after my strength training but not as bad as it could have been so that means progress in my books!

I am trying this carb busting like supplement called IC-5. It is suppose to convert your carbs into energy instead of fat. The first day I lost 2 pounds but had also ran 3.2 miles so it could have been sweat weight loss instead of real weight loss because I was back up again.

I'm not giving up but I am beginning to accept that my butt will always be a size 14. I do want to lose the 10 pounds I have gained since knee surgery and then just become strong and fit. If I get to a size 12 I will celebrate but if I remain at a size 14 then I will just embrace my body and be thankful for the things I can do at my size.

1. I can mountain bike for 13 miles with only having to walk my bike in a few spots.

2. I can run a 5k in 45 minutes.

3. I can ski black diamonds.

4. I can hike for 4 hours.

5. I can workout for 2 hours hard and not feel dead.

These are a few things I can do at my size and I am happy with these achievements. As long as I stay active and keep pushing myself these things will only improve!!

Tuesday, September 8, 2015

Still No Weight Loss

It's just frustrating but I do know that I am stronger and have more endurance. So I am taking that as a win for all my hard work.

I can say that with Michael home over Labor Day threw off my no alcohol mantra. I still have a fridge full of beer!!

For the next 7 weeks my plans are as much cardio as I can stand. I will be running 3 days a week and biking 3 days a week if weather permits.

Wednesday, August 26, 2015

Keep Doing The Work!!

Well I did not go for a bike ride on Monday because my legs were so darn sore. I instead just worked at my second job for 3 hours.

Tuesday I did go for a run, but I could only run for a mile before my knee began to bark at me. I did run for 5 minutes straight before walking so that is a huge improvement.

For today I will do an arm strength training workout. I haven't decided if I want to follow a workout video or do my own. I might need to follow a video because I tend to over do it when i wing it on my own.

Eating has been fairly good. I am not tracking anymore because it is just so damn tedious. I have decided not to weigh myself again until October 1st.

So my biggest focus is on my workouts. I want to be strong and have plenty of endurance this ski season.

Monday, August 24, 2015

Feeling the Burn

I was feeling yucky on Friday. A feverblister has come up on my face and I know that means my body is needing rest. So I rested on Friday. Then on Saturday I thought I needed to make up for Friday. I did over 100 varieties of weighted squats and over 100 varieties of lunges. Then I decided to jump on the treadclimber for 30 minutes. Nearly two hours later I was spent from a damn good workout. I felt awesome and so proud of myself!!

Sunday morning I could barely walk let alone sit down on the toilet! So my planned run on Sunday did not happen. Lesson learned is making up for one day can screw up another one. I should not have over done it. I know next time to limit my strength training to probably half of what I did on Saturday. I will eventually get tot the point of what I did on Saturday as a normal workout, but not yet.

I do plan on biking after work today. I also have 3 running days on the books for this week. I have improved my time each time I have ran. I am hoping for under 14 minutes per mile tomorrow.

On the eating front, I did poorly this weekend due to being sore and sick feeling. So all easy and quick meals.

Tuesday, August 18, 2015

Staying Consistent

Well staying consistent is a great way to begin any weight loss journey. The consistency instills a long-term habit for most. There is always that percentage that it just doesn't work for. I feel that I fall into that not work for category at times. I have been consistent lately with my workouts and eating healthy. I have not splurged on cookies and junk food in months!

I know that my thyroid issue is really adhering my weight loss. I have to accept this right now and work on making myself feel good so I can remain consistent.

It is shattering at times when you have been so damn good for weeks and there is no change on the scale but the constant up and down that it does every week. I mean my weight begins at around 174 on Monday and I will go down to 172 and then up to 176 in that week, but by Monday I am back to 174. I really hate this thyroid problem but it is where I am in my life. Hind site is 20/20 and if I had only stuck with taking my meds prior to knee surgery and never took that Garcina Cambogia I would probably be at my idea weight of 145, but you know what I didn't and I am where I am today.

So it is time to stop measuring my progress by the scale!

It is time to measure my progress by my strength and ability to do more and improve upon those things.

For instance, my 2 days a week strength training - I need to increase my lifting weight every two weeks. I cannot remain at the same weight because I will not build more muscle that I need to help burn the extra fat. No more easy does it with 5 lbs but do the hard ones with 8 - 10 lbs and then increase every two weeks until my deadlifts and shoulder presses are with 20 lb weights.

Keep increasing my running time each week. I am right now at 14.35 minutes per mile. I need to get to 12.3 minutes per mile and then begin increasing my distance until I can run 5 miles.

Biking - I need to bike Round Valley on Saturday mornings and do no less than 2 hours. If it means looping Matt's Flats 2 to 3 times or even more until I feel confident enough to do the harder loop then I do it. 

I may never hit my magic number of 145, but I will be a damn healthy size 14!! That is what matters right now to me. Being healthy at the size I am now and hopefully with staying consistent with my workouts but pushing myself to achieve my workout goals I will lose weight. If I don't lose weight and can do all my workouts I will be healthy and will have had to lose some inches in the process.

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

Mid-August Update

Since the last of July I haven't really given this 100%.  I have been given it 90% which is better than completely stopping. I am still trying to figure out the best diet for my body. I have cut out wheat bread and I have only had a tortilla and a few crackers this week. I did go out to eat too many times last week.

So again I am trying to make this work. I feel as if I am constant on my workouts. They are not as intense as they could be, but my knee has been inflamed lately. I'm not giving up on myself and my needed weight loss. I haven't yet came to an acceptance of my size and will keep trying.

I thought waking up early and having breakfast before work would be better....nope....I just cannot eat or wake up that early. My body is used to sleeping for so many hours a night and eating after 8 in the morning. So I'm going to switch back to eating breakfast at work, but what should I eat. Apparently the Vega Protein mix I love has hemp and other items in it that isn't good for my thyroid. So I am back to researching what is the best breakfast for people with hypothyroidism. I know I need high protein but without a stove that will be hard to hit for my breakfast during the week.

I do know that my body is still adjusting to the meds so it might take a few more weeks before whatever I do really shows. I have to accept this and stop worrying about how large I am and seeing the family in October this much overweight. It isn't as if they are all skinny and healthy so I just need to focus on what makes me feel good. I need to get out of my head and focus on the steps I am taking.

Speaking of steps, I have ran two Sundays in a row. They aren't the best pace time but I'm doing it. I'm just going to stick with this program and see where I am in a couple of months. Then I will tweak it if need be.

Now I'm off to research breakfasts for hypothyroidism. Yay so much fun.

Tuesday, August 4, 2015

Took a Hiatus from tracking

Yep I did it again! I took a week off from tracking my food. I think I didn't overindulge but I have no proof.

I feel as if I will never figure out what it will take for my body to lose weight!! I cut my calories down to as low as I can and I workout....I gain weight! I go to a more in between calorie intake and workout...I gain weight!! I am gaining and then losing the same 5 pounds over and over again!! I am very frustrated and just don't know what steps to take to make my body go into a losing phase. It just wants to stay in maintenance phase and I need it to gear over to losing phase!!

I will stick to trying to stay at an average 1300 calories per day. I will also keep to my workout schedule and listen to my body when it just cannot workout that day. Like yesterday, I could barely walk from the run I did on Sunday. Yes, I did an actual run! I overdid it because I listened to Keith on where and when to run, but I won't make that mistake again. I will try different locations to figure out which one will work for me, but I do know the rail trail isn't my running path!! I also know that I don't need a running partner. Although Keith is by far no running partner. He left me and only walked with me on our walk back home. He sucks as an exercise partner. So I will do my runs alone and at my own pace. I thought I would look stupid and feel stupid running...well, I might have looked stupid but I didn't feel stupid and that is what matters!! I plan on running on Thursday for one mile and one mile only. I will try an interval of 1/1 for this first mile and see how it works for me.

One thing I can say about running is that my whole body is sore from it!! The pounding is hard on the body but I think it will also be good. My knee is sore but I will use my knee sleeve on Thursday and see if that helps. I have to get my breathing down better as well.

So yeah, I didn't track for a week but maintained my weight and then I began tracking for the last 3 days and gained weight!! So very frustrating but I will get there!! I will reach my goal!!

Thursday, July 23, 2015

Just a Post to Write down my Thoughts

Well, I can say that trying to get healthy and lose weight is a constant thought on my mind. I don't know if it will ever change, but it is something I think about consciously every minute of the day.

My internal thought process:

"Should I eat that popcorn? Where does that take me on my calories? I should really move more today so I can off set any extra food."

A constant thought, a constant reminder of what I need to do.

Will I not need these internal conversations with myself once I am at my goal weight? Will this be my thought process until the day I die?

I really do not like having these thoughts constantly, but i must in order to achieve my goal. I just hope that once I have met my goal I won't have to be as mindful because the habits of good eating and exercise will be instilled in my daily life.

I have those days still that I just am not motivated and all I want to do is sleep and not think. I know my thyroid is a huge factor in this and I just want it to get stable and stop messing with my days. I think that if things don't improve by the end of September I will make another appointment and have her check my levels again.

I also know a lot of my problems stems from worrying about money. I'm tired of that broken record as well, but it is what it is right now and until we can downsize and buy another car we are where we are.

On a lighter note, I had a wonderful workout on Monday! Here is a picture of me after working out. I was spent and feeling good.

Thursday Summary

My week started out strong by I have faltered mid-week. I can say that I could never be Vegan. I went one full day without eating any meat and I was not feeling well the next day. I had absolutely no energy and nothing seemed to satisfy my hunger.

Now to the breakdown of the past three days:

Monday I stayed well under my goal of 1400 calories. I also did a great workout! I did my favorite step aerobics YouTube workout along with running on the mini tramp for 20 minutes straight. Yeah I didn't stop I ran the whole time!! I know it isn't the same as running outside but it is a start.

Tuesday was the day I ate no meat and I could really feel the no energy. I had to really force myself to workout and it was only a 40 minute workout at that. I did 20 minutes on the TreadClimber and another 20 minutes on the mini tramp. I didn't really go very hard on my running or the treadclimber because I all I really wanted to do was sleep. I was way under on my calories I didn't even hit 1200 calories for the day.

Wednesday was a hard day for me. I wanted to workout but I just had no energy for anything. I didn't even want to carry on a conversation. We ordered pizza and that is what put me over. It is what it is and I will have to really watch my calories for the rest of the week.

Total Calories Eaten:     4682
Total Calories Burned: -5959
Differential:                  -1277

I will get over this stumble and burn the extra 2223 calories I need to burn as well as keep my total eaten calories at 9800 which means I can only eat 1280 calories each day for the next 4 days. It is going to be tough but I know I can do this.

Monday, July 20, 2015

Monday's Roundup

Survived another weekend!! I did not drink one ounce of alcohol all week!! I'm very proud of that feat!

I started using a new app to track my daily activity and burned calories. It is suppose to sense when I do certain exercises. Well it doesn't do a very good job but it does count my steps better than the LG Health app on my phone. I was running on the mini tramp and it sensed me as being on an elliptical. Plus it is suppose to sense when you do squats, sit ups, pushups, hula hoop, jump rope, treadmill, and bicycle. Well it only sensed me doing 9 squats when I had actually done 50, plus it sensed me doing situps when I was doing side bends. But hey it gives me an idea of what calories I'm burning. It is better than nothing.

I signed up for a Virtual 5k for the week of Aug 9 - 15. I signed up to do walk/run so I have to get some time out on the trail training. I ran on the mini tramp for 10 minute intervals so it is a start.

So let's look at the past 4 days:

I don't know why my BMR changed through SparkPeople but it reads me at 1800 calories for my BMR now from 1650. I don't know if it has adjusted to account for me working out as much as I have or what. I decided to go with the Sense Me app for Friday, Saturday, and Sunday's calories burned.

Thursday was going really great until my daughter came home with bagels. I was at 1400 calories until I ate a bagel. At least I opted out on the cream cheese and used light butter instead. Small tweaks sometimes just small tweaks.

Friday I stuck with the plan and plus made myself workout since I didn't feel up to biking because of the hard winds. I did a great 45 minute strength/cardio workout and then did 20 minutes on the mini tramp. I found healthy substitutes for my sweet tooth and stuck with my eating plan. Plus when the husband stopped by Arby's to grab himself something to eat I did not order anything and went home and worked out instead. Again a small tweak saved me some major calories!!

Saturday I just couldn't talk myself into biking. I don't know what it was but this weekend I was anti-biking. I did do another strength training workout and I felt it not long after the workout. Thank you Jessica Smith TV for pushing me!! I then did 30 minutes on the mini tramp which equated to a 1.5 miles. I again stuck to eating healthy and light.

Sunday I knew I had to go to a picnic and ate light all day. I didn't do any type of exercising besides planting a few plants and walking up and down stairs a few times. I have began listening to my body and when I am feeling like I have to push extra harder than normal to do a workout or bike ride I choose to rest my body instead. I cannot go another week like I did 4th of July week where all I did was nap and do absolutely nothing.

The full week summary is:

Total Calories Eaten:      11,204
Total Calories Burned:  -14,935
Total Differential:          -3731

So I finally hit my calorie differential goal. I had to be very mindful the last 4 days because I had over indulged a couple of times through out the week. As of Sunday morning I weighed 172.5 but this morning I weigh 174. I understand that there is weight fluctuation and I could be retaining water from not drinking enough water, but come on give me a break!! I'm going to book it at 174 but I hope to see a change next Monday. I have maintained for 3 weeks now. I have to start seeing that scale go down this week!! I am going to have to really push harder to burn off the fat.

Thursday, July 16, 2015

Thursday Summary

I have exercised 4 days straight!! I went over my calories Wednesday, but all the other days I have been really good. I think I needed that week of rest and naps because I haven't taken any naps this week so far. I have been extremely tired after biking and it is hard to wake up in the morning still. I haven't done any strength training since last Monday. I think I will take a 30 minute break from works today and do a quick one. No biking today so the strength training will be a nice break.

So let's have a look how my week is going so far:

Monday I biked home from work and only went over my 1600 calories by 87. So I think I did good considering on Sunday I did 3.5 hours of exercise. So my body was needing some fuel.

Tuesday I worked at Michael's and actually worked the floor. I was walking constantly so I consider it exercising since I did more than what I usually do on a Tuesday night. I also stayed below my calories.

Wednesday busted everything. Bad eating day but good exercise. I was really spent after the bike ride.

Total Calories Eaten:    5395
Total Calories Burned:-6390
Differential:                  -995

I have to really stay focus the rest of the week. I feel as if I will have a weight gain this week. But I'm not going to quit. I'm going to stay focused these next few days and really work on my eating when I'm bored problem.

I will also take some progress pictures this weekend and see if there is a difference. I hope so.

Monday, July 13, 2015

Monday's Roundup

I really did not workout at all this past week. I just was so tired most days that I ended up power napping when I got off work. I am feeling better this Monday so maybe I just needed a week off.

Let's begin the summary for the week:

Thursday I did good on eating. But I did not workout. I took a 2 hour nap after work.

Friday I did not take a nap but I wanted to. I did about an hour of walking when I went grocery shopping. I ate well I just consumed too many alcoholic calories. Alcohol on the weekend is really my downfall. It is just so many empty calories and I really need to stop doing it.

Saturday I did not go on the bike ride I had planned. I also took a 2 hour nap as well. I would have done good with my calories if I had not drank a few beers. Again I was over my calorie allowance.

Sunday I made up the for all the lazy days with 3 and a half hours of exercise. I did an hour long bike ride where I wrecked twice. First time back single tracking with clipons and a trail I haven't done in nearly two years. After biking I just didn't feel as if I did enough so we hiked for 2 and a half hours.
I didn't eat many calories but again the alcohol made up 600 calories.

I have to get a control over my weekend drinking. For one the beer is so low in alcohol content that I really am drinking empty calories. So I am not buying anymore beer until Labor Day weekend. I need to also plan my meals around any cocktail drinking. I have come up with low calorie drinks that taste good and the only calories are from the alcohol shots. So that is better but I really need to cut out all alcohol for right now. I am down to maybe 2 shots of vodka left at home so no drinking for awhile.

Total Week Summary:

Total Calories Eaten:    11,809
Total Calories Burned:-14,709
Differential:                   -2900

Better on my calories burned but still not at 3500. I know if I had done even 30 minutes a day I would have made it, but I will have those weeks. I didn't lose any weight this week. I actually went up by half a pound but the drinking makes me retain water and that should be gone soon. I have to lose 2 pounds this week. So I will be eating light and working out each day even if it is just 30 minutes.I have a bike ride planned after work today and one planned for Wednesday evening. I should lose the 2 pounds this week and with the no drinking until Labor Day weekend should help as well.

Thursday, July 9, 2015

Thursday Summary

So far my week has been great with eating. I have stayed below my 1600 calories for Monday and Tuesday. I went a little over on Wednesday, but it wasn't by much.

I had my last follow up with the doctor on my thyroid. She said my levels are good and I do not have Hashimoto's. That is a relieve. I know that there will be weeks where my energy level will become very low and that is this week so far. It began on Saturday and it hasn't stopped yet. I did take a 2 hour nap on Wednesday. I had actually drank some Jack 3d and still slept for 2 hours. I just could not muster up the energy to workout so I didn't force myself like I have in the past.

So here is this week's summary so far:

Monday was my doctor's appointment and I had to fast until after 10 am. I barely hit the 1200 calorie mark and did a two hour workout. I did a 30 minute strength workout and then mountain biked for an hour and a half. I could tell that I had not eaten much and was losing energy fast. It took all I could to finally make it home from our ride.

Tuesday was work day and I did do a lot of walking around the store. I also was feeling pretty tired and had a headache all day. I ended up giving my 2 week notice and I'm really glad I did. I just need to concentrate on the two important jobs that I have now. Plus I need to really concentrate on my health and Tuesdays were really messing me up.

I did not even hit 1200 calories for the day. I ended up eating a bowl of oatmeal just to get over 1000 calories.

Wednesday was my tired day. Now looking at Monday and Tuesday I can see why I was tired and lethargic. I just had not eaten enough food to keep me going. I almost hit 1700 calories for the day, but it was good food and not processed junk food.

I didn't do my planned workout even with it only being 14 minutes long. I had good intentions but I have learned that I have to listen to my body. If I can sleep for 2 hours after taking Jack3D then I needed the sleep. I even slept soundly that night.

Summary for the first half of the week is:

Total Calories Eaten:     4028
Total Calories Burned: -6028
Differential:                  -2000

I am on track for a good week and hopefully a drop in weight. I still have 4 more days to go.

Monday, July 6, 2015

Monday's Roundup - Survived the Holiday Weekend

It was the 4th of July weekend and I didn't overindulge. I drank a couple of cocktails on Friday and a couple more on Saturday but the only calories were the alcohol. So I didn't go out and buy a case of beer and drink it all up. I have decided if I drink it will have to be tequila or vodka with a non-calorie mixer.

I didn't do much exercise after Friday. Saturday and Sunday were just lazy days. I think with my thyroid I will have days like these. The good thing is that I didn't eat like I normally do when my body is tired. I slept when I needed sleep and kept my calories under 1600. Which could be why I show a 5 pound loss this week.

So the Roundup of my calories are as follows:

Thursday I did a short 30 minute bike ride so only burned 133 calories. I stayed within my range of 1600 calories for the day.

Friday I did a lot of walking and a 45 minute bike ride. Burned some good calories and was under 1600 calories in food I ate.

Saturday was such a lazy day. I had good intentions of waking up early and biking but the path I would have taken was full of people. I just knew I would end up having to walk my bike majority of the time because of the parade, 5k, and pancake breakfast going. I was extra tired for some reason, probably the thyroid. So I took it easy and napped when I needed to nap which was most of the day and evening. All the sleeping kept my calories in the low range which is good since I did no activity.

Sunday we woke up to rainy weather. We had the alarm go off early but we both decided it was a lazy day. I think the husband and I were just needing a good day of rest and relaxation. Again I didn't eat too much. I don't know how because I was wanting to eat sooooo bad. I stuck with healthy snacks and just said no to eating.

All and all I stayed within my calorie range of 1600 each day. I didn't exercise as much as I wanted but I begin a strength training program today and should begin burning some major calories.

Total Eaten for the week: 10,631
Total Calories Burned:    -12,870
Differential for the week:-2,239

Still didn't hit my 3500 calorie differential that I wanted, but because I didn't workout as much I did eat less. Only by 569 calories, but it is a start and it takes time to reset one's thinking.

My scale read 173.5 this morning which is a 5 pound loss for the week. I'm not counting on this to be accurate, but I will log it and keep watching my eating and workout more this week. Hopefully I will maintain this week and not gain.

Thursday, July 2, 2015

Thursday Summary

Oh my it has been a tough week! I have stayed on plan and remained under the 1600 calories, but the temptations have been so tough. I know a lot of it is my emotions. We are short on money this month (as usual) and I am internally freaking out (as usual) and trying to stay strong for the husband. I keep telling myself that this will pass and we will get back to being sound in our finances. It will happen, but lord until it does I just want to dive into a bag of cookies like crazy!! The heat isn't helping either (or maybe it is)....we have to go into our bedroom by 6 pm to remain cool. This does keep me further from the kitchen and I don't like eating in my bed, but I am dying from the heat!! If you could truly melt fat by sweating I would be so skinny right now!!

So the summary is:

Monday I did no type of exercising. My knee was so sore from biking on Sunday and no matter how later it began it just didn't get any cooler to go out and practice biking in clipons. I did add in some mild walking as part of my exercise. I did go up and down the stairs a few times and walked a lot at work.

Tuesday I had to work at night so no true dinner. I filled myself up before going into work. It was so darn hot when I made it home that all I ate was a couple of chilled oranges. I did a lot of walking while working although all I wanted to do was stand in front of the vent that was blowing some nice cool air at me.

Thursday was a good day. I went and practiced with my clipons and did pretty good. I was starving when I went to bed but knew I was at my 1600 calories for the day and just went to bed hungry. I'm trying to lose weight which means some nights I will be hungry and I will just have to ignore it.

Total Calories consumed:   4676
Total Calories burned:      -5571
Differential:                         -895

Venting Session:
This will be on everything today because I just need to vent and write my frustrations with life down.

I just can't ever get above water!! We begin to see a few good months where I'm not worried about a payment bouncing or having to pay something late and then we go back into not being able to make it through the month!! I am so damn tired of this!! I know I have to come up with a budget and really stick with it. I have to say no to myself and the family on purchases we really don't need. I mean every time the husband and I decide to do something for ourselves like go out to eat or go to the movies it always ends up I regret treating ourselves. I keep these emotions all bundled up inside and it just eats away at me. I hate that I can't go and buy something without having buyer's remorse. Every damn time it happens. I know what I have to do and it takes a lot of work and a lot of no's. I just have to face reality and tackle this demon. I have to come to the realization that we are just not those people where everything works itself out. We are those people who have to pinch each and every penny. I just need to get the husband on board with a budget and let him know that if he works with me we can get out of this debt and live the way he wants. But until then we have to enjoy only the free things and forget golfing, going out to eat, and buying items we really can do with out.

Monday, June 29, 2015

Monday's Roundup

So the last four days have been good and bad. The good part is that I was active, bad part is I ate too much and drank some beer and alcohol. I have to get into moderation instead of thinking that I will workout even harder the next day to counteract my bad judgement at the time. It just doesn't work that way. I know it doesn't and I need to become more strict with myself.

So the breakdown is as follows:

Thursday I was doing great at first but ended up drinking 3 bottles of Corona Lite. I did a bike ride at the last minute and it was so darn hot!! I hit the wall and was just dying by the time I made it home. I really didn't want to cook, but I did and then I enjoyed 3 beers. So I burned over 500 calories (probably more than this but without my fitbit I can't track all the walking around calories I burned) but then I consumed 2317 calories. 481 calories were from beverages alone.

Friday I ended up going out to eat with the husband. Man you don't realize how many calories are in the food at restaurants!! OMG it is crazy!! Plus I had a couple of margaritas and those bad boys are loaded with calories. We did do an hour and half of walking at Scheels. That is one huge store and I still don't think we covered the whole store.

Saturday's plans got so blown up!! Cynthia texted me at 6:30 in the morning wanting me to finish up entries that she had sent me at 10:30 pm the previous night! So instead of the bike ride I had planned for myself at 8 am I was working on her books at 7:45 am. Then I had to meet her at noon which made it way too hot to bike afterwards. I just chalked up the day as a active rest day.

Sunday made up for Saturday!! I did two separate bike rides! Man they were both tiring. The first one we biked from Deer Valley to PCMR which was 7.12 miles. The first part of the ride was all up hill on single tracks. It was so hard. But the end of the ride was all downhill on single tracks. We had to do a lot of stopping for late start bikers biking up but all and all it was a fun ride. The second one I thought would be an easy breezy rail trail bike ride. Well the husband decided that we should take the new underpass to the Round Valley Express trail. Good lord the last half of the bike ride was pretty much all up hill and not an easy 2% grade but some pretty major climbs. By the time we made it to the last 1/4 mile I had hit a wall from the heat and walked my bike the rest of the way. We got stuck waiting on traffic and I just didn't have the energy to start biking uphill from a complete stop!

Part of the Deer Valley Trail that was tough to bike up.

The easy grade of the Rail Trail near Promontory.

With all the biking I didn't have any time to eat because once we made it home we went back out looking for me some clipon shoes and new clipon pedals. So this afternoon will be filled with learning how to bike with clipons!!

Now the breakdown for the week of June 22 - June 28:

Total Calories Consumed:   13, 354
Total Calories Burned:       -14, 495
Differential:                           -1141

Definitely didn't hit my -3500 calories that I wanted as the differential. But this has really helped me see what I need to work on more and how I should fix these problems. I ate way more calories than I wanted for the week. I was showing a differential of -851 by Thursday morning and my bad eating and drinking is what busted my goal. So for 4 days I only burned an extra 290 calories. Wow what an eye opener!! I should have only consumed 11, 200. So a difference of 2154 which if I was to look back at all my entries will be the beer and cookies I ate through out the week. I also should have burned 15, 400 calories for the week. I came pretty darn close, I was only shy by 905 calories. Those calories could have been burned if I had worked out on Friday and Saturday like I had planned.

My conclusion is that the older I become the more vital it is to watch what I eat. Losing weight is going to be 80% diet and 20% fitness. Until Thursday!!

Thursday, June 25, 2015

Thursday Summary

So I have been logging all my food for the past 3 days. The good, the bad, and the ugly!! The breakdown comes down to these following charts. Monday was a day of rest so only calories burned were my normal BMR of 1650 calories. I over indulged because my daughter baked the yummiest cookies ever.

Tuesday was my day of working until 9:45 at night. I do a lot of pacing back and forth while working at night so I figured I burned about 200 calories. I am missing my fitbit really bad right now!! Surprisingly I remained under 1500 calories. I say surprisingly because when I got home the husband had ordered pizza and I had one slice. My taste buds wanted 2 but I limited it to just one and the smallest slice left.

Wednesday I went on a hike after work with my daughter. For the first time in years I actually jogged!! We jogged intervals the last half of our hike. It was on trails which I think made it easier for me. On a long asphalt trail I can see further and my mind begins calculating the distance and all the other awful things, but on a trail I have to concentrate on just the 2 feet in front of me the whole time. My recovery was quick as well. I was totally redfaced at the end and was getting the looks from everyone at the base of the resort, but I did something I haven't tried to do in years, I jogged and it felt great!!

I ate over 1700 calories which is 200 more than I want to eat each day, but I have to take in account that I just didn't have any good food in the house. My cupboards have been extremely bare this week. Grocery day is today, so hopefully next weeks eating will be better. I was completely vegan on Wednesday though.

Break down for the past 3 days:

Total calories eaten:     4903
BMR:                           4950
Total calories burned:   804
Total burned:               5754

Differential:                -851

My goal is to have a total differential for the week of -3500 so I can lose at least 1 pound. I have a lot of working out to do these next 4 days.

Monday, June 22, 2015

Figuring it all Out

Well trying to post daily is just too much for me. Also taking pictures of everything I eat is too much for me. I want the blog to be a positive tool instead of one that becomes tedious. Losing weight and becoming healthier is hard all by themselves, I can't let blogging about my journey become a chore and something that will derail my efforts. So I am still in the figuring it all out phase.

Bottom line is that I might have 2 days out of the entire week that aren't overwhelming.

Mondays might be easy to blog during the day, but after my main job I then have to go home and work a few hours on my other bookkeeping job plus the husband is home and becomes a distraction. So Mondays after work are not good days for blogging.

Tuesdays I work all three jobs so I am out of the house from 6:45 am until 9:45 pm. There just isn't any downtime during Tuesdays to post. So Tuesday blogging is off the table.

Wednesday is my best day for blogging during the day and evening. Thursday is a good day as well. Weekends are really out because I am pretty busy the entire time to blog. So I think my blogging days will be Monday with a catch up from the weekend and Thursday with a catch up from Monday - Wednesday with some goals lined up for the weekend.

I do want to post some pictures because I just like the looks of it, so I might still have some food and activity picture collages but no more breakdowns of each meal. I will still try and track all I eat and give a breakdown each Monday of calories in vs burned. But for the rest of June I am just going to focus on exercise and eating better. So no tracking of calories and plus my fitbit broke so unless I am using my biking app I can't really track accurate calories burned. Hopefully I will have a new fitbit by July 1st and can then track my calories more accurately.

For example: Saturday I only did 30 minutes on the treadclimber so it shows only 125 calories burned, but I know I burned more because of the non-tracked activities from the day. I know I walked up and down stairs at least 65 times that day not to mention the calories I burned sanding tables and chairs to be stained. So it was an active day but no organized workout. Then on Sunday I hiked for 6 hours. An online calculator said I burned 2500 calories while the sparkpeople activity tracker said I burned 3330 calories. So without my fitbit I just cannot tell what is accurate for my calories burned.

On a brighter note, I did lose 3 pounds last week. I started off at 179 and this morning it showed 176. Now I did get down to 174.5 by Saturday, but by Monday the scale was reading 176. It would have been awesome to have been 174 by today, but  I will take the 3 pounds. I was shooting for 2 pounds a week and to have lost an extra pound is terrific.

Today will be a rest day for me because the hike really took everything out of me. We ran out of water half-way into the hike so dehydration really kicked in and my body is still recovering from it today. Tuesday will only be active from cashiering at Michael's for 4 hours, but Wednesday I will begin my biking after work again. So I am working out actively 5 days a week but they have been straight days which means no breaks in between. I think the Monday rest and Tuesday active rest days are going to work for me. I will pick one day a week to be a very active day but not over do it like I did Sunday ever again. That was just brutal.

I will blog again on Thursday and begin the true format of how I want my blog to go. Until then I will keep my eating under control and stay active!!

Thursday, June 18, 2015

June 18th


1 slice of 12 grain toast w/ egg salad and butter
1 small apple
3 cups of chai tea sweetened with stevia in the raw

I was planning on eating 2 slices of the egg salad toast but I just could not eat the second one. The bread has a strong yeast flavor to it or wheat. I don't know but I think I will be throwing out the rest of this bread. Plus I should have kept the egg as just a hard boiled egg. The mayo, mustard and pickles just isn't something I prefer in the morning. The apple was very tasty!!

Mid-morning Snack:

1 serving of Oikos Greek Yogurt w/ blueberries on bottom
1 serving of Snapple Lemon Ice Tea


Baby spinach w/ tuna fish salad
1 serving of Snapple Lemon Ice Tea

Very tasty lunch and filling! I love the dole salad kits and this one is the baby spinach with blue cheese crumble, slivered almonds, dried cherries and a white balsamic vinaigrette!

I was going to have a tuna fish salad sandwich with my salad, but I had to toss the bread. I am still having an awful after taste from it. I think the wheat was fermenting.

My Thoughts for Today:

I am succeeding in having protein at every meal today. I am trying to up my protein intake to about 100 g per day. Just have to keep my carbs under 250 g per day and I think this might be the winning combination for me.

I felt pretty rested this morning, but I am starting to get the afternoon slumps. I do have a red bull to give me energy for my bike ride after work. Yesterday I had to drink some JackD 3D in order to have energy to go on a bike ride. I don't like having to take these energy drinks, but I seem to need them everyday.

Afternoon Pick me up:

1 can of Red Bull Yellow

After work bike ride complete:

I hit my 500 calories burn goal for today!! It was scorching hot as you can see at the top of my stats pic. 91 degrees and no shade through out my entire ride!! I did take a break at the soccer fields and ate a protein bar. I had to detour off the rail trail due to the city spraying the weeds along the trail. I carried my bike up the public stairs but stopped at our courtyard gate. Thought I could just go in through the gate, but the gate wire is broken so had to leave bike and walk the rest of the way up the stairs and then back down 2 flights of stairs to grab my bike!! I was so out of breath by the end of this bike ride. I know it is the heat but it is only going to become hotter so I have to acclimate!

Mid-afternoon Snack:

1 Almond chewy nature valley protein bar

Bacon Cheeseburger & 2 Miller Lites

So I ended up drinking 2 beers today. My day was still very active and busy.

End of the day stats:

Calories Eaten:  1687
Calories burned: 539
Net Calories:      1148

Wednesday, June 17, 2015

June 17th


I ate 2 pieces of 12 grain bread toast with butter and apple butter jam
Drank a Yellow Red Bull and 3 cups of chai tea with no milk sweetened with stevia in the raw

Mid-Morning Snack:

Oikos Greek yogurt with blueberries on the bottom


Golden yam microwaved with salt
Green Giant steamed veggies

Not the best tasting lunch...
I over cooked my potato but it was filling
My Venting my feelings section:

Well, I am feeling disappointed in my ability to lose weight and my need for sleep in the mornings are making my breakfast decisions questionable. I really have to get in control of my eating habits better. My energy level after lunch is feeling pretty good. I feel as if I will have the energy to go on an hour long bike ride after work.

Speaking of biking, I need to set up 3 days of organized strength and cardio work outs again. I have been lacking on the work outs this past week.

Did a bike ride today after work. It was very hot and I only stuck with the rail trail and double tracks at round valley.

The sun was beating down and there was not shade at all.

Screen shot of my stats. Not too shabby for a quick after work bike ride. Wanted to do 10 miles, but missed the turn I needed to take and it ended up shortening my ride.

Mid-Afternoon Snack:

1 oz of Planters mixed nuts


Stir fry pork and vegetables w/ 1 cup of white rice

It is now 6:30 in the evening and I have eaten all the meals I allotted myself. I am hoping that if I stay busy I won't eat anything else.

End of the day totals:

Calories eaten:  1587
Calories burned: 477
Net Calories:    1110